Monday, March 31, 2008

Prayer

We need prayers, specifically for our baby. Last night I suddenly started bleeding and clotting with some cramping. This continued today so I went in to see my OB. Everything had been going smoothly so far, I just expected peace-of-mind with an ultrasound. She told me my cervix was closed (which is encouraging), and the sac looks really good. However, there was no heartbeat. There was some kind of pulsing/fluttering near the baby, but we're not sure if that's from me, or the baby. We don't know if our baby is alive or not.

I was given a Rx to stop the bleeding for now. They also drew blood, and will recheck it on Wednesday morning to see if my hormone levels are dropping. If they are dropping, there is nothing anyone can do, and we'll let nature take its course. The OB assured me there is still some hope, and we'll check again for a heartbeat on Friday morning if the hormone levels are stable or rising.

I can't begin to describe the heartache Mike and I are going through. There is no room for anger. We know God's will will be done, even if we don't understand. We trust Him. We are trying to find a middle ground for our emotions right now. On one side, we completely believe in miracles and know we could see that little heart beating on Friday. On the flip side, we know this rarely happens.

Kristin T. I want to thank you for recommending your OB to me. Dr. K is who I went to today, and I'm so grateful. She listened through my tears, and didn't push for an immediate d & c. She even seemed to know what I was thinking by telling me not to play the "guilt game."

I am so thankful for Natalie. Having her here makes me feel better...I have to force myself out of my depressed shell, and put on a smile for her. The bitter side of it is, b/c we have Natalie, we know exactly what we're losing.

Most of all, I'm so glad Mike and I shared our pregnancy news already. Whatever the outcome of this week, our baby (like any other) deserves to be anticipated, and prayed for.

So that's what we're asking. If you have a few minutes, please help us lift up our baby to the Lord. His will be done.

Thank you for reading and caring.

3 comments:

Tate Family said...

Consider it done. The Lord already has everything planned out. His grace & peace are enough. We love you!!

The Honsal Family said...

Praying for His will. Hugs Sarah!

Juli said...

Lots of prayers are going up for your family.